Is it wrong to be afraid, to stager even slightly when your future it shoved into question before you? When one step, one decision could make or break everything. To choose between the content repetitive life you know and the unknown but new life you could have is insanity. How is one to decide which path to take when they have never seen either? One path has been started, it’s simple and safe, and small bumps in the road. But you have already vowed to stand your ground. The other rout is new, you have never tasted it’s air or seen it’s colours. There is no way to balance the two, no way to see and weigh their outcomes. The time of question runing out with every breath. What will I give up, what am I willing to loose, or do I simple stay put and never take the chance that I know I can.
When the equation holds too many variables and only one equal sign how do you know the answer.



I wrote this because I am moving, I have the decistion of switching schools. I have little idea of what I should do because I love my friends but I also know that I could stand to be without them durring school. I don't want to leave them, I know they would be hurt or sad, but I also know that friends are not always forever. To give up something that could help me in the future is not something I really want to do. I also do not want to give up my friends, forever or for now, They mean the world to me. After 8 years of having friends that I can't trust, that dont care about other people and are as nieve as hell, I couldn't give up my friends now. The friends who I can trust, who care about me and are nice to other poeple, who believe in thw future and hope for the best of everything. My friends made me who I am, I might slip up, I might forget that they care and I might not be the best friend but they still care about me and I them.
So what does a person do?